It took me a while to find my wings.
Finding one's wings is a process - a continual developing and expanding of our wing span.
I discovered the key to finding our wings is in the dance that we allow our emotional and intellectual energies to do within us. The dance requires us to be with ourselves, to accept ourselves, to discover the hidden gems within us.
For me the journey took a long time, decades. As a child, I had learned to rely heavily on the intellectual energy component of my inner being. For sure, the emotions were still active but in the background - in the level just below consciousness. I felt it wasn't safe to explore the emotional dimension of myself too much.
Despite the partial use of my energies, I was able to do a lot. I achieved my bachelors, and masters degrees, married Cecilia, a woman who loved me much, and had my son, Thomas, who inspires me and has provided me with guidance on my journey. I met many wonderful people and had wonderful experiences. I also made my share of mistakes and took my share of detours. I do not regret any of these experiences. All of them helped me to be who I am today. My only disappointment is that it took me this long to discover how beautiful and how large my wings are.
Discovering these wings required me to begin to be more open to my emotions, to begin to be more vulnerable. Not vulnerable in the sense of being wounded, but in the sense of being open and allowing. I have discovered that one can only be wounded and hurt if one allows the hurter to “rent space” within our energy fields, i.e., within our space, within our head. A person can try to hurt us, but we can, like martial artists, deflect the hurtful intentions by seeing what the true issues are, yet not allowing the hurtful words or actions to dominate our experience. The hurtful intentions or painful experiences can be a positive energy by releasing them and redirecting our energy to our desires and purpose.
Stay tuned for the next installment: What to do with your wings.
